Friday, February 22, 2013


Don't Quit
When you've eaten too much and you can't write it down, 
And you feel like the biggest failure in town.
When you want to give up just because you gave in, 
and forget all about being healthy and thin. 
So What! You went over your points a bit, 
It's your next move that counts...So don't you quit!
It's a moment of truth, it's an attitude change.
It's learning the skills to get back in your range.
It's telling yourself, "You've done great up till now.
You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow."
It's part of your journey toward reaching your goal.
You're still gonna make it, just stay in control. 
To stumble and fall is not a disgrace, 
If you summon the will to get back in the race.
But, often the struggler's, when loosing their grip, 
Just throw in the towel and continue to slip.
And learn too late when the damage is done, 
that the race wasn't over...they still could have won.
Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow, 
but facing each challenge will help you grow.
Success is failure turned inside out, 
the silver tint in a cloud of doubt.
When you're pushing to the brink, just refuse to submit, 
If you bite it, you write it....But don't you quit! 
- Author Unknown

Okay, I knew this day was coming, I weighed in and GAINED a pound....:( Have been overly busy and sank back into some bad habits. But this time when usually that  gain would push me back months or make me want to quit, it makes me more determined. I have added another job too in the past week where I sit in a chair for 8 hours answering provider and member calls and the only activity I get is at night and weekends when I work my other two jobs....doing occupancy inspections and managing our family business. My life is by no means predictable or ordinary or routine.....
I am working on now trying to figure out exercises to do while sitting...wish me luck everyone as my journey just got a little tougher.
But whats a journey without having ups and downs along the way right???
Hope you all have had a better week than me...I will over come this and emerge VICTORIOUS!!!
Never Give up NEVER SAY DIE!!!!

Saturday, February 16, 2013


Through this process I am going through of making permanent changes to my eating habits and my thinking about my health, I have realized that THIS IS HARD!! I know no one said it would be easy but really really didn't think it would be this HARD! 
My life is not routine, I do not have set schedules through out my day. I am depending on myself alone! No one is here motivating me to get out of bed at 6 I still seem to want to sleep til 8 am when I know I need to get up and exercise as its the  only time in my day I have time for it.
Knowing this I am still having a block against doing it. However, I am thinking about it which is more than I used to, I am feeling guilty when I don't get my butt out of bed. 
I should be losing 2 pounds a week and instead I am only losing a half pound to a this rate I will have grandchildren before I get to my goal weight...:( that is not acceptable.

Below are some great snacks that taste yummy too...I am adding some of these to my snack list.
Hopefully it will give some of you guys a few great ideas as well.

Frozen fruit juice bar, 1.3 oz11 g451 g
Orange, small (2.5-inch diameter)11 g451 g
Light popcorn, 3 cups popped12 g602 g
1/2 sandwich, with 1 slice each bread and lunch meat and 1 oz cheese13 g14915 g
3 saltine crackers with 1 oz cheese13 g1729 g
Apple, small (2.5-inch diameter)14 g530 g
Sugar-free pudding, 3.7 oz container14 g602 g
2 graham cracker squares with 1 Tbsp peanut butter14 g1535 g
2 light Wasa crackers with 1 large hard-boiled egg15 g1388 g
3 saltine crackers with 1 Tbsp peanut butter15 g1536 g
Mixed berries, 1 cup fresh or frozen17 g700 g
Pear, small (1/3 pound)22 g811 g
Pudding, 4 oz. container sweetened24 g1301 g
Sandwich,  2 slices bread, 1 slice lunch meat and 1 oz cheese25 g20416 g
6 saltine crackers with 1 oz cheese25 g23110 g
Low-fat chocolate milk, 8 oz.26 g1588 g
Light popcorn, 7 cups popped28 g1404 g
6 saltine crackers with 1 Tbsp of peanut butter28 g2127 g
5 graham cracker squares with 1 Tbsp peanut butter30 g2426 g
Yogurt, 6 oz. container (low-fat, fruit-flavored)33 g1747 g
I weighted in for the week and had not lost or gained....I am not surprised as I did not eat as well and no exercise was done on my part. Not even my counter pushups and squats.:( 
Nobody to blame but myself. This journey is a long one and I am not going to get down over a scale not moving. Back to the drawing board and working this week on doing what I didn't do last week.
Hope you all have a great weekend and are having a little better luck on your journeys.

Friday, February 8, 2013

WEEK 3- My Journey Continues

I dedicate my Weekly blog to the greatest Daddy in the world, James (Jimmy)F. Tillotson!
He always taught me to work hard for everything and that anything worth having is worth working for!! He also wanted me to lose this weight! I am just sorry I did not do it before God took him home! I will make you proud, Daddy, today is a hard day for me as it is my daddy's birthday...he is with God now and its still very hard to grasp that I can no longer call him or give him hugs! I miss you daddy:( the pain is still there and the tears still fall! I will lose this weight and will honor my daddy who told me I could do it when I was ready. I am ready!!!:) I know you are with me daddy and helping me keep the strength to fight this battle. I love you!

I have been told to become a morning exerciser. (I hate mornings)-But listen to what the experts say:
Morning exercise works. Let me repeat that: Exercising in the morning is one of the best ways to stick to a routine. Even with the best intentions, life gets in the way of your desire to squeeze in a workout. Anyone—even you—can wake up 15 minutes earlier to squeeze in a 15-minute workout (especially when you sleep in your workout clothes).

My journey continues and I have decided to blog weekly as a daily blog is beginning to stress me out and I gotta not be stressed cause when I am this happens:
My goals this week have been to drink more water and exercise more, I have at least Semi mastered the water. My trainer has invited me to his boot camp training next week at Fitness Plus II (Tuesday night at 630 pm). I have agreed to go,  but nervous as I can see myself over doing it to keep up with the barbie dolls!!LOL. 

But this way I know I will get at least some cardio in for the week. I have another friend who suggested I go with her to a boxing class....Now that sounds fun as I love hitting things to get my frustrations out..hahaha.
I also am planning to do the HIP HOP ABS Dvds I have as most of you know how I like to get jiggy wit it!!!:) Because  that makes me break a sweat and you don't even realize it until you can't breath...haha.
I also weighed in today and I lost another pound...I now am 274! 
Yay!!! Next week I am shooting for two pounds....I think adding in the exercise will help tremendously. Have a great weekend everyone....Check back next week to see how I did this coming week. Gonna kick butt and not look back!! Who's with me? Lets do this!!!

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

DAY 17-20: Achieving Short Term Goals-Yields Long Term Results

As I walk this journey I am on I find many detours along the way! This past weekend ,I was out of town at a soccer tourney in Fort Wayne Indiana with my daughter, eating planned meals at planned times was impossible! I thought I was making good decisions but still managed to go over my calorie count each day! The good thing about journaling what you eat is you can look back at the end of the day and see where you went wrong! I have realized weekends are not my friend but it will not deter me! I know that two days doesn't kill all the work I have done! I also know that in order to be successful you have to set mini goals.
Here are just a few of my mini goals:
1.     keep track on paper or Lose It(app) everything I eat.
2.     do three sets of the following exercises per day: push ups(on counter), squats with chair, crunches
3.     drink one gallon of water per day (still haven't attained this one but getting much better)
4.     eat earlier and wake up earlier.
As one of my favorite Church Hymns say:

One day at a time sweet Jesus
That's all I'm asking from you.
Just give me the strength
To do everyday what I have to do.
Yesterday's gone sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be mine.
Lord help me today, show me the way
One day at a time.... ♪
Have a great week everyone!!!:)

Friday, February 1, 2013

DAY 14-16: Hot and Cold

Like the weather lately, I have been hot and cold with my journey. When things get busy I get cold, when things are routine I am hotter than fire.

 My weigh in this morning was a loss of a .5 pound which is not bad but 275 was not the result I was hoping for.
I do however know where I failed: I did not exercise the 30 min a day I should have and did only a few of the sets of squats,pushups,rows and situps I was suppose to do.
We head to Fort Wayne IN this weekend for a soccer tournament for my daughter and I am trying to get my business stuff handled so I can leave town which makes me stressful and not as mindful of what I put in my mouth.
The doctor also told me after my sleep study two weeks ago that I have moderate to severe sleep apnea and that he is suggesting a c-pap for me to help me sleep better so I can awaken more restful.
I should have that started within a week or so. Then maybe my energy level will get better as well so I can stop making excuses for the lack of energy I feel to do that 30 min a day cardio.
Just like the photo I posted for this blog...You can cheat on your journey and expect to reach the end!!!:)
Have a great weekend everyone and stay warm!!!